Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Tuesday, November 30

I had a feeling today was going to be busier than Monday and I was not wrong. I don't have joy in my heart. I don't have pep in my step. I wonder if I will ever feel energetic. I wonder if my heart will ever be open to be filled with joy and love. I am very sad and down about my life. I use food to fill the void. I need to find the drive within me to change my habits but doing it solo is not working for me. I didn't go to the Y tonight. I made excuses to not go. I am stupid.

Stupidity = Doing the same thing but expecting a different result

1 comment:

  1. Yeah, I know the feeling. I struggle with clinical depression, so motivation is something I have trouble with as well. Anyway, I hope you feel better soon.